Some things are wrong

I keep telling myself that it’s going to be okay, that we will talk, that we will be getting closer soon. Just like we did before. But I’m not so great at this whole optimism act, cause I’m still crying myself to sleep every night. Knowing there will be something wrong between us. I just always had this feeling that we weren't meant to be together. I'm sorry I ever tried. I was a fool to have hope in you. I honestly couldn't tell anyone why I loved you. I just get the greatest feeling when I see you looking at me, even for just a second or when you say my name because i know that even if it's only for a second, I crossed your mind. 
I just want to be the smile, the first thought, the long drive, or the short walk, the last voice, the random call, the laugh, the comfort hug, your second half, the sparkle in your eyes, everything you need, just what you want. I don't need a super-cute relationshit between us, I just want to be yours. Believe me, you've got someone here, someone who wants to make it right, someone who loves you.  I'll always be waiting outside. Maybe one day you'll let me in. 
I have a long list of things to say, but I'll leave it at, you r-e-a-l-l-y amaze me. You are my fairy tale that I never want to end, even with a happily ever after.